Lenny Kravitz
annotated lyrics
They say time heals all I been patient
I paid for therapy and sat through medtation
I prayed for clarity but mostly I just waited
To see but nothing changed
For my birthday last year I decided to give myself mental health therapy. I was struggling with being too obsessed with work and not having mental or emotional energy for my loved ones.
And I don’t have a plan been working my ass off
Tryina get to the bread my head in the sand my face in this laptop
Yeah on the day to day
I pack that shit away
I realized I was using work to numb feelings I was avoiding. Feeling ashamed of not being enough. Experiencing grief for the planet. Experiencing challenges in my relationship.
So don’t askme if I love ya.If you’re afraid I’ll never love anyone, I’m afraid I’ll never love anyone again
Don’t ask me if I love ya.Cuz it feels like part of me ran away and I’m afraid I’ll never love anyone again
The scariest part was I lost the ability to feel love for my partner. I just didn’t have the capacity anymore which was really scary for me.
I’ve been really nomadic for like half of my 20’s and I’ve been around a lot of other nomads. I’d start feeling really connected to roommates I’d live with and then they would move away to another country to pursue their passions. And then I would find myself wanting to move away too.
Feels like all the people I ever loved moved away damn
And the rest of em moved away from
But I tried to save some
Another day gone
Dylan said you just can’t be wise and in love at the same time
Dad said he used to see emotions as something he should try to run away from
My therapist asked me a lot about my parents and how I saw them. We talked about habits I have are connected to ways my parents were growing up. It was really interesting to talk to my parents about this and my dad agreed and told me he used to see emotions as something to try to push away so he could focus.
Well, and that’s probably the saddest
Pornography habit
Keep packing my baggage
Fly away Lenny Kravitz
Pornography is like the fast food of sexuality. It’s convenient empty carbs that made it easy for me to not feel how hungry I was for real human connection. But it’s the same with Netflix and social media. I had surrounded myself with so many options for numbing.
Fucked up by emotions so to cope had to go numb
And now I know loving someone takes everything that you run from
Don’t ask me if I love ya
If you’re afraid I’ll never love anyone,
I’m afraid I’ll never love anyone again
Don’t ask me if I love ya
Cuz it feels like part of me ran away and
I’m afraid I’ll never love anyone again
Go, go, go home
Oh, oh, oh, no
The crazy thing was I had started to convince myself that I didn’t need intimacy in my life. I wanted to get away from anyone holding me responsible for anything. The only reason I decided to start therapy and show up and talk about this stuff with a professional was because I knew I was letting my partner down and I knew she was deserving of a better partner.
